Liver Shrinking Diet: Week 2

Day 8: I am feeling okay today, I remembered I had some shakes from the Dr office I haven't tried yet so I decided to give it a whirl. Honestly these are def the best shakes I've had so far! 

Biggest lesson learned today, make sure that the lid is closed on your blender bottle prior to shaking! Evidence below! 

Oops. 

Day 9: I am sleepy today but feeling okay. 

I have lost 11 pounds now and that's pretty exciting! I really wanted to eat more ground turkey than I was allowed tonight but I didn't. Chris (my fiancé) has been a huge support, he told me not to do it and I somehow listened. Progress my friends, progress. 

Day 10: today I had a class with the nutritionist. Basically about what we can or cannot eat. It's nice to know what is coming but I'm also terrified. It's just so hard to imagine not eating food for 2-weeks after the surgery. Oh well I'll survive.

Day 11: they have us email people as a part of this surgery, to hear people's experiences who have done it before. It literally scares the crap out of me. Some of the responses are just not what I expected in terms of weight loss. Like I was expecting people to have lost a significant more than some have. I become terrified I'm making a wrong choice, that this is the wrong surgery. 

I am trying to remember we are all on our own path and that someone else's success does not dictate my own. 

Day 12: tonight was my besties birthday. I seriously had a hard night just not feeling "normal". Like everyone else was able to eat and enjoy themselves and I couldn't. Everything has to get measured and weighed etc. I know this is temporary but it didn't stop the tears. My friends are an amazing support though. I am lucky.

Day 13: tonight was another celebration and I never like cake, seriously I'm not a sweet person I am such a savory, salty person. However just not being "allowed" it makes me want it SO bad. It's like that childlike part of me that just wants to scream and pout because I am in control. I step back though and remember I AM in control. I'm making a choice to live a healthier life. When I give myself everything I want I have no control, it's how I got to where I am. 

Again knowing this doesn't stop the tears, the large drop off your face hiccup tears. 

Day 14: I wanted to cheat so bad today. Chris and I went on a random little road trip and I just wanted some fried chicken. I didn't though because what I know about me more than anything is one is never enough. I would cheat tonight and I could see myself headed into surgery without having done the work I needed to do. Today was hard but definitely a success.

This week was super emotional, I just felt sad a lot and like I was wanting and craving. The emotional work here is really the work that needs to be done. I am grateful for my support network and people who rally for me. 

This week I lost 3 lbs so I'm down 13 total. It felt a little discouraging at first to go from 10 lbs one week to 3 the next. However I'm trying to remember this is not a race and 13 lbs is a lot in 2 weeks.

Until next week reader!